Today

Yeah, I'm having a little bit of a "slower" day.

It seems like some of my emotions come in waves

these days. They used to be constant. Now, it's

every once in a while. For that, I'm thankful.

But it doesn't feel so good when those

waves come. Today.... Today is one of those

days. I stop to pause and think a little bit.

I realize that I miss the way that things

used to be. And I realize that all of these

things in my life are changing, that

specific things about my past aren't a part

of this big wide future that's opening up for me.

While I'm so happy about what is to come,

there's a bit of a bitter taste still in my mouth.

All I know is that I cannot stay still, I cannot dwell

in the past. All I have is what is ahead of me. I look

out of my window and I see the blue sky and green

trees. I feel the sunshine on my shoulders and hear

the laughter of my friends. I realize that I'm learning

to be happy again. My darkness is lifting. That makes

me so encouraged and thankful. Today is a sad

celebration. Today is good and I can feel it getting

better.